It’s been quite a while since i wrote anything , this is because I felt a hole in my heart for so long that I couldn’t write without crying . So first , I was trying to figure out what I want exactly .Then I saw this
You know what ?? some people will always say : we never gonna leave you ! (and they are numerous ) , take my advice and wait for them to be the first to go while having your hard days .Surface friends are basically everywhere .This is why I don’t like depending on people because they leave all the time!
Anyway , that’s not even a problem right now . I’m over it …..
Today was surprisingly and maybe the best birthday. Well not because of gifts or anything to do with what ‘normally’ makes me happy lol ! yeah right I was chocked myself , guess what ? I spent it in the library. Weird huh ? but lemme tell you the story . Here we go I met a person whom I never thought would make me this happy . So silly that made me laugh ,i felt beautiful , real , and very comfortable in my skin , Because i’m so tired trying, I was literally so me while talking . My new friend made me see the world differently , know that at least over there people may care about me , give me time when I need it .
So believe me , knowing new people is so helpful sometimes .Maybe it’s just the famous ‘beginning’ word .They will change like everyone does anyway . But at least this will give you a motivation as short as it can be , hope , satisfaction about who you really are .
Best advice that I can give to my old self . Stop impressing people .Instead, spend your time on things that bring real value to you based on who you really are , and especially find you beautiful even with all you flaws and insecurities .
love you all , good night 19 years old be nice xxxx