From the day I started breathing I met a bunch of people . Some of them stayed , some of them barely made any impression , some of them left me broken , and some of them ended the relationship no matter how hard I tried to save it .
The thing is: people walk away from you life when it’s time . Whether they chose that or not . Life has always been planed and who knows maybe it wouldn’t work anyway .
This is why I’ll admit one of my biggest insecurities: I don’t do big steps . Even if it’s obviously imminent in the future I’ve always had in mind that things always come to an end . (I know it’s terrible ) and I struggle with my own thoughts every day . let alone all the nonsense distractions I created . But do I make sense here does it at least feel a bit right to let the days go since I’m too panicked about what the future might hide for me . Wondering if the step I would make will make it any worse .
So it’s always about the future , i’ve always made decision because I was scared of tomorrow .But they say if your dreams don’t scare you, you’re not dreaming big enough.
I know that i MUST be optimistic but i never achieve that shit.. :/
Dear future ,
Do you know that I screwed up not one time not two , loads of times because of you
Do you know that you scare the shit outta me
Do you know that I lost so many things because I’ m not sure what you’re hiding
Would I be happy at least
Would I make it to my dream job
Would I even meet the person that will make me happy for the rest of my life
God help me to beat that future and make them all true !
Does anyone feel the same way . I would love love loooooove to hear stories about people who read my blog . Believe me when I tell you that i hesitated a lot before writing this, but I did it anyway I felt like I would explodeif I don’t .
Love you all
Good night xxxxx