Happy Ramadan ! (00:00 full belly , half asleep )

So as a Muslim  it  has been 5 days since I’ve been fasting  . People might ask about the reason why Muslims fast during this month  . First of all the month of Ramadan is when the Holy Quran "was sent down from heaven” . It is The third "pillar" or religious obligation , during  this holly month we try to concentrate on our faith , read Quran worship , give charity , basically be close to Allah , and becoming a good person . The second thing is that through fasting we can experience hunger in order to develop sympathy for the poor and appreciate everything god gave us  . Fasting is also beneficial to the health and provides a break in the cycle of rigid habits or overindulgence.

Let’s talk about how we deal with fasting . believe me when I tell you every  single muslim wait for this time of the  year with excitement because it’s very beautiful how everyone become kind , how family is brought up together during iftar’s time ( break the fast ). Sooo we arise early in the morning during Ramadan to have a pre-dawn breakfast meal, known as suhoor. And obviously , during the Fast of Ramadan  we are not allowed to eat or drink during the daylight hours. Smoking and sexual relations are also forbidden during fasting. At the end of the day the fast is broken with prayer and a meal called the iftar .(and miaaaaaamy  this worths  the pain off standing preparing different meals ) .

 In addition to the five daily prayers, during Ramadan we  recite a special prayer called the Taraweeh prayer (Night Prayer). The length of this prayer is usually 2-3 times as long as the daily prayers. Some people  spend the entire night in prayer.

Anyway , Many people find that because they are fasting they lose their tempers more quickly. So one of the first things that the fast teaches is self-control and patience.well ,  fasting teaches us different(good) things . I used to have a kinda depression before starting this month . now it’s all gone . I feel so happy mashalah ,  thanks to God

sweet 19 !

It’s been quite a while since i wrote anything , this is because I felt a hole  in my heart for so long  that I couldn’t write without crying . So first ,   I was trying to figure out what I want exactly .Then  I saw this 

You know what ?? some people will always  say : we never gonna leave you  ! (and they are numerous )  , take my advice and  wait for them to be the first   to go while having your  hard days  .Surface friends are basically everywhere .This is why I don’t like depending on people because they leave all the time!

  Anyway ,  that’s not even a problem right now . I’m over it ….. 

   Today was surprisingly and maybe the best birthday. Well not because of   gifts or anything to do with what ‘normally’ makes me happy lol ! yeah right  I was chocked myself  , guess what ?  I spent it in the library. Weird huh ?  but lemme tell you the story . Here we go I met a person whom I never thought would make me this happy . So  silly that made me laugh ,i felt beautiful , real , and very comfortable in my skin , Because i’m so tired trying, I was literally so me  while talking .    My new friend made me see the world differently , know that at least over there people may care about me , give me time when I need it .

So believe me , knowing new people is so helpful  sometimes .Maybe it’s just the  famous ‘beginning’ word  .They will change like everyone does  anyway  . But at least this will give you  a motivation as short as it can be  , hope , satisfaction about who you really are .  

Best advice that I can give to my old self . Stop impressing people .Instead, spend your time on things that bring real value to you  based on who you really are , and especially find you beautiful even with all you flaws and insecurities . 

love you all , good night 19 years old be nice xxxx 

Why does not giving a shit help you personally?

     I’m currently sitting .it’s 1.00am  and I can’t sleep . And , when I can’t sleep I write to you …..! 

 Sooooo , I’ve had something in my head lately !it’s just stuck , sitting in my head repeating itself again and again  .....

(People  I thought  they will stay forever were  the first one turning  their backs to me ) so that’s the main reason behind  answering  this , seriously I’m done caring about people . Nowadays they  take (nice) attitude as a weakness ….. So If u one of them I HATE YOU ! 

Let’s go back to the main question : Why does not giving a shit help you personally?

BECAUSEEEE : the moment you start doing this you will  focus on yourself. You  are going to focus on the things that’ll really  benefit you either now or in your  future (CUz then no one will  even give a damn about you ) . If you allow hatred, judgments, rumors, or anything similar to that get to you, you’re gonna have a rough time trying to get anywhere . 

You have to ignore all the bad shit to see all the good shit.

That exact moment you will see how much of your friends gonna turn their backs to you just like gaining more enemies . But enemies are better than fake friends right ?

There’s so much that "not-giving-a-shit" can benefit for you. You just have to know when to not give one properly.

This is the only way to achieve what are you  willing  to achieve .  Then you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a bittersweet time . You will definitely know how this hurt  , how they broke your heart , but life was changing  you big deal .

“Negativity is a very nasty and contagious disease. Remove yourself from all negative people, situations, and things. Choosing to be positive will help you maintain a better attitude, better health, and a better mind set.”

—  Jeffrey Hanson

 Luuuv y’all

Good night