Hunting Hapiness

In two weeks i’ll be 19 ! you know,  that is  one of those moments I look at my life and think *Shit I’m nearly 20 what have I achieved? NO steady job , no man , no money ………!!!

Then I think : stop putting so much pressure on yourself  you are just 19  you have friends , family , a house , good grades.  I’m doing just fine right ?  Would you rather settle for a crap job and a crap man, which are going to make you extremely miserable? Or wait to find something/someone you will love and make you happy?

I’m aware  of the typical ‘ girl’s dream’, find a man, get engaged, get married, buy a house, have a baby or two , get a bigger house ! yes life plans are amazing I admit it . But,  still giving myself  a personal expiry date  is quite hard to achieve and not healthy at all . I’m always feeling like I’m running out of time , pressure, fear of deception  … 

          I think it’s  time to just go with the flow , trust myself and not to care about the future . Trust me the fear of not achieving my goals are the reason why I do not achieve them ( well most of the time )

Anyway i Do HAVE a big dream ,and I’m  trying my best to achieve it of course !

 But I think I  should stop putting un-necessary pressure on myself so do you !

What do you think about that ???! 

leave me a comment if you do not agree with me .

Lot’s of love. 

Good night

Love is full of irony

  (carl barat this is the song ♫♫)

It’s funny how things work in this world. Especially when it comes to love.

  

·         U love someone that  doesn’t’ love u back

·         The person u love does love  someone else so no hope u gonna get anything in return

·         You both have mutual feelings but both of u are too stubborn or afraid to commit

·         You had the right love at the wrong time (Somewhere Down the Road plays )

·         Loving the right person in the wrong time

·         The worst is the moment you moved on when the other realizes (s)he has a feelings for you too

Have you ever met someone who was just right for you? Someone who just matched you and understood you completely? Someone who you can tell anything to and know that you won’t get judged,  that person will tell you things as they are? Someone who knows you better than anybody else and will always get what you’re saying? Someone who just fits and happens to be your other half? 

Say what, love? Why do you keep on messing with a good people with perfectly good hearts?

FED UP OF 'FITTING IN'

 You know I’m writing this and pretending that nobody gonna read it, exactly like my own personal diary,just thinking that one day  I’m going to re-read it and know how stupid  I was .Those painful emotions were nothing but  a passing  thoughts  .And that was one of those  several times I was overreacting . 

 College : Years of pressure , heartbreaks and expectations ,pretending I’m just fine which  is not true .i’m NOT !

Seriously people around me  became  so Fake !!

Yeah I know that I’m lucky,  my friends are definitely the most amazing people  . I know that I’m loved , so loved . But , I’m still figuring how those OTHER  people  are doing this . How I’m the only one that sees this terrible things people are able to do . How am I suppose to cope with this whole hatred around me ? The problem is that they are acting super nice and after one single glance  i  know that  deeply inside it’s exactly the opposite of what it shows . During those  two years  I was chocked how set of people have different personalities and act according to situations differently.

 A bunch of fakes who would go to any extent to make themselves  seem good and upright.

 How  can they  harm , sabotage everything you do and  just for the sake of what ?  

  you know those people cannot be trusted right ? Simply  because they can’t be straightforward.

 Fake people must be kept at arm’s length, most certainly. Fake people should be avoided at all costs because they can any time ditch you, any time.

One must be quick enough to discover them !

Dream Big !

Your dreams won't come to you...!

You can just  sit in your house and dream about things you want to do with your life, places you want to go, things you want to achieve, but they're not just going to fall in to your lap and say "Heeey here I am!" You have to grab it by the horns. How are you suppose to achieve this ? that’s the real thing! the only question you need to ask yourself .

Well sometimes people share with me their big dreams and I'm like okey !

Your big dream will only come to fruition if you are focused on it so go ahead make it true !

 Can you just do that first 

1* stop  focusing on the wrong people and the wrong things

There are  a plenty of things waiting to be done plenty of books waiting on your shelves begging you to read them don’t you think it’s time , as for people be with who bring the best in you meeting people with aspirations is truly inspiring, especially when they are from the same sort of background as you.

2* You don't know everything...

3* Be yourself 

If you're not true to yourself and who you want to be with  in your life, then what's the point?  

 Trust yourself ,  your abilities and everybody gonna love you !let them see the real imperfect flawed beautiful magical person that you are . (Trust me in this) you will be the first one to love yourself .

what are waiting for ?

Lots of love xxx